The whole timezone thing on reverb10 is kinda sucky. Problem when we’re ahead of GMT, I guess…

December 2 – Writing.
What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it?

Doubt. Over self-sensoring. Having a journalist for a husband.

Offending your family and being asked to remove content from your blog.

I can’t eliminate these, but I’m working on overcoming them.

December 3 – Moment.

Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).

Running W1D2 of the C25K around the oval near work. Carli’s MP3 playing on my phone. Trying to run on sandy soil. I stank of sweat. My hip, calves and heels hurt. I was blinded by the afternoon sun. There was a fit guy running in the opposite direction and I want trying to act like I wasn’t dying.

But I didn’t die. And I finished the run. It felt awesome :)

December 4 – Wonder.

How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

Ignorance, generally.

December 5 –  Let Go.

What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

I’ve learned that I need to let go of my expectations of some people. Because, if I don’t, I’m going to turn into a  shriveled  mess who turns up to crisis therapy sessions at the drop of a hat and can’t function like an every day human.

And, in time, I need to learn when to let go of anger/pain/disappointment/etc.

Case in point: today, while stopped at traffic lights, we saw a friend who we haven’t spoken to in almost two years. This friend suddenly vanished for no apparent reason. And today when we saw him, Dan yelled across the street to said friend as if things hadn’t changed between us. They traded insults (as was the norm for them) and when the lights changed we drove off.

If it was up to me? I probably would have tried to hide, ignored them and then stewed over it for days afterwards.

In the words of my wise husband, “You can’t hold onto that shit forever”.

Right he is.

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3 thoughts on “Writing/Moment/Wonder/Let go

  1. I should probably complete this. Lots os shoulds. But I don’t really want to look back on this year. Just wanna move on.

    Bring on 2011!

    Posted on 5 December 2010 at 9:36 pm
  2. Congrats on getting out and doing the C25K. I simply can’t get out of bed to go for a run, this northern hemisphere winter thing is kicking my ass.

    Also, your husband is very wise. We really shouldn’t hang onto “that shit” forever, but I do. I really need to work on that.

    Posted on 5 December 2010 at 10:20 pm
  3. I like reverb10 because it seems to make us all more self-aware! I think you’re husbands blunt, but good, philosophy of not holding on to that shit forever is perfect! Sometimes I hold onto things, and people, too much. I could certaily learn for your husband’s words.

    Posted on 5 December 2010 at 10:44 pm