Spring has inspired the old gang to start off another health kick – the Blogger Loser Challenge.
Only problem is, I’m exactly not feeling inspired to lose any weight. Let me explain why.
A couple of months ago, I realised just how mentally exhausting it is to be fat. So much of my brain function is dedicated to telling myself I’m fat, how I can “do” things because I’m fat, how I really shouldn’t eat “that” because I’m fat. How being fat makes me unhappy, yet eating like a rabbit makes me unhappier.
So I gave it up.
I made a conscious decision to stop obsessing over what I was eating and how I felt as a fatty. I learned to appreciate my double-chin in photos (this was a m-a-s-s-i-v-e thing for me). I even gave up wearing fat-sucker undies and bike pants and full-body contraptions. Because having to readjust myself every 3 minutes was a giant PITA.
I’ve only gone swimming once this winter and while I know I’ve put on a little bit of weight this season, all my clothes still fit me.
Mentally, I’m in a much better place than I was in autumn and I’m wondering how it’ll impact on my involvement in the Blogger Loser Challenge. I still maintain sugar-reduced eating habits, trying to only eat homemade sweets.
As I’ve always complained to my ever-patient GP, Dr Joe, I know the practicalities of how to lose weight – I just don’t have the driving motivation and dedication. Dr Joe tells me there is no motivation pill and knocked back my offer to finance the research to develop one.
At this early stage, my goal is to reduce my sugar intake and increase my swimming where I can manage. There will be no celery sticks or related bullshit in my routine, because I’m sure celery actually makes me feel worse.
If you want to join in, you’re more than welcome! Go check out Leigh’s post for all the info x