I’ve been sitting here for the last half hour, trying to put what’s going on in my head onto the page.

It isn’t pretty (what’s in my head).

The topics include making decisions about:

  • My mother
  • Her alcoholism
  • My wedding day.

It’s just too hard to put into tangible sentences without sounding like a sooky-lah-lah.

I also keep getting blog-fright because OHMYGOD someone else might read it.

Which is kinda the point, yeah?

My decisions on the those 3 topics are all linked; the butterfly effect that could make or break my brain.

And my brain hurts.

I think I need another session at Al-Anon.

Send cupcakes.

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8 thoughts on “Send cupcakes

  1. ah thats a tricky one. but *hugs* and as i keep telling myself: it’s only one day…
    .-= chocolatesuze´s last blog ..world’s biggest burger [8] =-.

    Posted on 23 September 2009 at 7:39 am
  2. They don’t serve alcohol at McDonald..it solves all your problems!

    .-= Leigh´s last blog ..How? =-.

    Posted on 23 September 2009 at 2:15 pm
  3. Hang in there until November and I will get you a six pack of Cupid Cupcakes. *hug*

    They do come in six packs right? ;)
    .-= Kay´s last blog ..Phoney Photo Pile #9 =-.

    Posted on 23 September 2009 at 11:02 pm
  4. *hug*
    .-= Fiona´s last blog ..Little Liam =-.

    Posted on 24 September 2009 at 12:05 am
  5. wish i had all the answers for you honey.

    i guess what you have to bear in mind is that, in years to come, you want to remember your wedding day for all the RIGHT reasons. you don’t want to begrudge anyone (including yourself!) for forcing you into making decisions for the wrong reasons. it’s a day for you and dan and everyone else pales into insignificance because it’s about making you guys happy!

    love you so much. you know where i am if you wanna talk. and if you’re worried about blogging too publicly then resurrect your LJ and at least you can keep that private..??! xxx

    Posted on 24 September 2009 at 1:48 am
  6. nyaw, thanks girls
    my pms was in a bit of overdrive last night o.O

    @suze – i wanna get the latest goss on planning your gigantic day :p

    @kay – cupid’s has 6packs, 12packs… NOM! which reminds me, ring to find out when they’re open, think it’s only weekends now :(

    @harriet – you’re right, might be time to just off the ol’ el-jay again

    :hug: thanks girls, seeing so many comments made my afternoon :)

    Posted on 24 September 2009 at 3:45 am
  7. Don’t know if you’ll read this, but hope you sorted out your worries. Alanon- do you find it helpful?

    Posted on 19 January 2011 at 12:57 am